2.CONFIRMATION OF CONCLUSIONS

Doubt plagues my every move, as I cannot seem to self-confirm my own logic discoveries, and what makes it more disturbing is that I seem to have lost my ability to simply believe in anything. I feel like I'm in a vacuum with no where to move or go to, and there is nothing of a real satisfying nature in that vacuum. I appear to have entered a neutral place of existence, as very little to nothing has any meaning. There is nothing to hang on to that makes anything feel good or stable. I like to work things out for myself, but the emptiness just continues reinforcing the doubt. As you have suggested, I need to confirm my own conclusions, but that is not as easy as it sounds. I am having a difficult, if not impossible, time attempting to do just that.

Response
Confirmation of your conclusions is what the book is about, and yes, that is not an easy process, and yet paradoxically is the easiest of all processes. You do not have to go anywhere to find confirmation, as you already have it. But you have created veils or barriers to discover that self-existing confirming truth and no one except you can remove those barriers. That may sound like a fudged response, but you are standing in front of your own light and then hunt everywhere for the light that you are unwittingly veiling. No one can turn you to face the light, as that has to be your own decision, but when you do turn to face the light you instantly know it correctness.

It is only later when the deception enters, that your connective experience will be devalued into doubt or emotionalized by the deceit. Both will destroy the purity of your experiential connection. The most practical approach is to simply ignore the doubt, and you will retain your connective experience. That may sound to simplistic, but it works. It works because by ignoring the doubt you have side stepped the deception that created it.

As you progress through the process of restrictive construct opening or elimination and deception and deceit with the volitional thinker subjugation, you will arrive at what may feel as an empty state. That is the space where those constructs and deception lived. It is also the same space where confirmation is found. No one anywhere can do that confirmation work for you nor can anyone give it to you.

This is one of most difficult aspects of a knowing-faith pathway, as the life in — what is referred to as — that empty space must be personally experienced. That life is Presence that is released, discovered and which That Sense of Presence connects you to. Even though you may initially experience the feeling of empty space, there is really nothing that can be called empty space. Everything is filled, and your experiencer fills what you are experiencing as empty space. What you feel as empty space is your own existence without construct armor; the deception filling that empty space with deceit wants and needs. These may now feels empty, as they are no longer there. That empty feeling can also induce the the emotions of doubt and vulnerability, initiating the four D's of distress, despair, despondency and depression.

Those emotions are only the actions of the deceit supporting the knower-I deception, which you can overcome by using your own spirit logic and spirit psychology prowess. You have allowed an emotion to arise and control you; meaning that you have willing subjugated yourself to a false and illusionary creation of your own making. The empty space, to which you refer, does not exist. You are consciousness filling that empty space as pure observer-knower. The feeling of empty space is a fabrication of the deception finding a way back into your life, and the deceit will support that deception by an emotion, reinforcing the deceptions existence.

Doubt is not a abnormal emotion in the beginning of a knowing-faith process, but it slowly disappears as your developing spirit logic confirms each conclusion and you continue your spirit process work. As your equanimity develops, that empty space does not fill because it is already filled. But it does begin to meld into your developing equanimity. Then one day for no particular reason — other than that the internal conditions are ready — your personal confirmation occurs. Then you know, and you know with such intensity that it could never be unknown or doubted.

Your constructs gave you something to hang on to, giving you a reason to be or to do. When the constructs are gone or disappearing the reason to be or do goes with it, and this can feel like an empty space or vacuum. If you have a belief-faith connection this would be a good time to reaffirm that connection, if only for any ritual that belief system may provide. That can create a soothing balm to the anxiety that the vacuum may be causing and so calm the deceit. This will prevent the deception from wallowing in some form of self-pity or depressive thought forms, all are deceit initiated of course, keeping the deception very much alive.

If doubt continues to haunt you, it is merely the deceit that is perpetually giving the deception life and keeping itself in a controlling position. If you discover that the deceit doubt is to powerful to bypass and you have no belief process to depend upon, you will have to rely upon your own developing spirit logic to continually affirm the created conclusions of your own existence exploration. A knowing-faith is not the easy road, and you will always be tricked, cajoled, and manipulated by the deceit, as you are always required to confirm your own conclusions. The knower-I deception will arrogantly claim the conclusion as it own, and the deceit will maintain that delusion by some form of anxiety,self-perpetuating the deception.

Everything always comes back to the deception and deceit, as that is the real issue. It is the knower-I deception that feels the empty space and the deceit will create the anxiety to maintain it, ushering in the doubt. When you are on that treadmill, up appears a lot harder to achieve than a straight drop down; but both are deceit thought-actions maintaining the deception.

Get the deception and you get it all. The book suggests a variety of processes to do that, so choose whatever process you best resonate with and stick to it like glue. You may still doubt your conclusions, which will create some anxiety, but if you never doubt the glue, it will keep you stuck to your motivation no matter what occurs. This is the required and necessary developed determination and tenacity. The entire process is to get the deception, and once got, it got for eternity. It can never again arise without you being aware of its arising. Life without the deception is so utterly different yet paradoxically absolutely identical, and this is the resolution of the 'bridge of duality'. A belief-faith is accepted or given, and a knowing-faith is created by effort. Both excel in effortless expression, as that is touching upon non-restriction that uses your developed equanimity as the base of your expression.

No words can make it easier to eliminate the doubt, beyond you seeing, knowing or simply believing that the doubt is all self-created. You have created or accepted the constructs that gave the doubt somewhere to arise from, but those constructs have no life beyond what you give them. The deceit will always maintain the anxiety that will self-perpetuate the doubt by a stream of endless emotions, maintaining the deception. It is always the deception and deceit in a controlling position that rules and manipulates your life. Get the deception and deceit and you get it all.

Confirmation of your conclusions is always present and is waiting for the deception to depart, lifting the veils that cover your own light. Confirmation then fills the space where the deception was. Confirmation is personal, and someone else can only point as to where the confirmation is, but they cannot give it to you. No one can remove your doubt or fill the seemingly empty space or vacuum. You must do that yourself. The only thing standing in the way of that confirmation is the deception.

It always comes back to you as the responsible agent for your existence. You evolve by that effort or stagnate without it. The straightest answer to your question is that doubt is a fiction that you have created by your lack of trust in your own conclusions. Trusting your own trust is one major step in evolution, as that creates faith, and no one can take that step for you. That is totally your responsibility, discoverable also as your joy.

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3.BELIEF VS. SPIRIT LOGIC

Practicing Buddhists and Christians have taken offense at the spirit logic removal of some of their cherished beliefs. Progressively they also appreciate why they where eliminated, even though they may not accept their own conclusive thoughts over their beliefs. This may not be in question form, but it is a condensation of many questions that all have this central core.

Response
Acceptance of spirit logic conclusions that go counter to a belief are the primary block between a knowing-faith and a belief-faith. A knowing-faith has no difficulty with acceptance of this nature, as that is how that form of faith continually grows in understanding and spirit value creation. A knowing-faith recognizes and knows the permanence of consciousness as the purity of observer-knower. Anything that one of its mind functions creates or accepts is easily accepted or rejected by referencing and measuring that creation against The Good embedded within their consciousness. This maintains the straightness, honesty and life of every decision. The Good is not knowable as a construct and therefore every decision is new every moment, and nothing is imprisoned within the walls of a construct.

What makes this vibrate with life is that you must access and reference The Good within your own consciousness, making an acceptance or rejection decision, every time. When this form of accessing is permanent, there is no longer a decision needed, as The Good is by then your natural nature and referencing The Good is the same as breathing, it is automatic. This means that no two decisions will ever be the same, even though they may appear identical. The individual will reference The Good according to that individual's understanding and established spirit value; his or her developing equanimity accessing felt compassion to produce an unconditional expression of love.

On the other hand, a belief-faith is compelled to remain within the created boundaries of the belief. This does not make the belief faulty, just restrictive and safe, as you are not required to move beyond the belief. Over time the belief will create its own restrictive methodology holding you tightly within the belief. This also eliminates everything outside its restrictive walls. It is here the deception easily takes you on the slippery slide from pure expression to enhancement, to excess and eventually into obsession. When in obsession violence is easily self-justified by the held restriction.

Humanity or the individual can then easily end up in construct wars where the humans are the fodder that come and go, whilst the construct remains to fight again and again. Simply expressed, a held belief is a supportive and directive guide. The moment the deception takes that expression one tiny baby step into enhancement, the deceit will give you a shove down the slippery slide, ultimately ending in obsession. This is a guaranteed preliminary to construct wars, where everyone loses.

A knowing-faith and a belief-faith are two distinct pathways to the same end, and both use referencing as their guide. How and what they reference creates their operational differences. A belief-faith will reference a construct and use it both as protective armor and as a sword to defend or attack, and this is restrictive energy all around. An established knowing-faith will reference its own consciousness and The Good that is embedded within it, for its referencing and expression. This is unrestricted referencing, as both what is referenced and how it is expressed remains unbound by constructs.

It is the knowing-faith form of referencing that allows you to accept a spirit logic conclusion that may go counter to a held belief. You may still be able to accept both with no feeling of contradiction, whereas a belief-faith will be thrown into turmoil. It is possible because a knowing-faith has no restrictive borders and will accept any construct, not as a construct with restrictive borders, but upon the non-restrictive base that it was created from. The contradiction will then cause no problems, if the base of each contradiction is in resonance with The Good. This is a knowing-faith reference that is totally unrestricted, and nothing of a restrictive nature can survive within it.

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4.CATCHING THE SHADOW

I can get an intellectual appreciation of the knower-I deception and deceit and understand how and why it operates. But then it seems to slip away with relation to work or social situations. How can I maintain my understanding and make it practical?

Response
The short response is that the knower-I deception and deceit can be intellectual known. But intellectual knowing is not actually experiencing it, and the difference is enormous. While still having an intellectual appreciation the actual experience cannot even be conceived, and no words can convey the difference of seeing. The intellectual appreciation will lead right up to the threshold of the gateless gate, but it will not get you through it. You cannot be pulled or pushed through the gateless gate no matter how much another may want do do it for you, it just is not possible. You can only pass through the gateless gate totally empty handed, and when you are through you will know the gate does not exist, making it gateless. This is one major realization of the absolute and total responsibility you have for you own existence. To make the intellectual appreciation truly yours you must actually experience it, then it all clears up in one instant of time. And that experience cannot be gained, it simply occurs when all the interior conditions are resonantly ready to erupt into a seeing that changes your life. The gate is the deception shadow of your existence, and the shadow will never disappear until you have turned to the light of your existence.

You only have one consciousness and that remains forever as pure observer-knower. It simply is a matter of where you maintain your awareness. If you are knower focused and use one of your mind functions of intellect, memory, imagination or intuition, it is that combination that holds your attention. This action can or will attract the deception that arises from the action, ruling by stealth, as you remain unaware of it control. This will in turn attract the deceit to maintain its existence. The deception is an illusionary pretender king that has also by stealth usurped your authority, making you a slave to deceit enticement, which is a delusion. When you are trapped, you're trapped and you are not even aware of the entrapment: this is the knower-I deception. The deception is normally experienced as your volitional thinker doing all your process work, but the volitional thinker does not realize that it is also being controlled and manipulated by what it has created or accepted, which is the deceit.

Gaining an intellectual appreciation of the deception and deceit supports your work to eliminate the controlling illusion. This is possible, as you will be able to recognize the deception and deceit when it arises or is in motion. No one can tell you how to actually do that elimination work in a practical format, as 'Do this and not that'. Any explanation or format will only create restrictive borders that the deceit can eventually manipulate to maintain the deception, defeating the purpose of the explanation.

To have an intellectual appreciation of the deception and deceit is a base to work from, allowing you to recognize it. You can then make your own decisions of how not to use or avoid being trapped by that deception. As stated in the book, it is clearing the knower of this illusion that frees your knower of its bondage. It is like removing multiple veils from your light that always has been turned full on, but has not recognized it because of the veils. The deceit creates the veils and the deception is the illusion of your diminished light. This creates the difficulty in suggesting any format to eliminate the deception, as the deception is your knower existence light with veils. To suggest how to remove the veils will only add another veil, no matter how good or practical that veil appears.

The most practical method to eliminate the deception and deceit is for you to attain a strong intellectual appreciation of what the deception and deceit is, so you can see it when it arises or is in operation. You cannot eliminate something if you cannot see it, and the intellectual appreciation will give you that seeing ability. What you do with that seeing ability is your decision. The elimination process is aided by any meditation technique that keeps the knower actively within the observer, as knowingly observant, maintaining a knowing vision with effortless awareness of all proceedings. Pure unbound consciousness can watch and recognize the deceptions actions or the deceits seductive poses.

If you keep your knower actively within the observer, in any work or social circumstance, you will observe with ease when the deception arises within you or others. The deceit is nauseatingly obvious. What you do with that form of knowing is how your equanimity is developing and is a quick guide to the extent of your own referencing of The Good, embedded within your consciousness. It will indicate how you will use that knowing. The more you use your knowing vision, the deeper within your consciousness you can and will delve. This ultimately leads you directly towards and into Presence.

Practice, practice and more practice, simply keeping your knower within or behind your observer, which feels like your observer knows, as knowing observant. You will gradually create a well-centered pattern that sees with absolute clarity when the deception arises, and then you can simply ignore it and continue on with what you where doing. This gives nothing for the deceit to grab hold of and so it can never appear. Both the deception illusion and deceit delusion are just that: an illusion and a delusion, and both just instantly disappear. Your own consistency will one day reveal by direct experience the great illusion, and then you will know. Your self-imposed bondage is gone, and now you real evolution can begin.

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5.DECEPTION CONSEQUENCES

I look at the world and only see inequality, where certain people or countries seem to have it all and others nothing at all. You are always saying that we are all born equals. How then can such inequality continue to exist?

Response
Consciousness is your reality and equality with everyone, as everyone is consciousness as pure observer-knower. The world you live in simply does not recognize that equality,as it can only see the deception and deceit that sees everyone and everything else through its adopted or created constructs, maintaining the inequality. Humanity's equalizer is and always has been consciousness, as pure observer-knower with The Good embedded within. Everything else is an addition, initiating and maintaining the inequalities sustained by the deception and extended and inflamed by the deceit. The moment you try to understand the inequalities, you will see the knower-I deception everywhere you look. However, you may not refer to it with that terminology.

The knower-I deception protects itself with constructs that the deceit will use to attack or defend,eventually putting the deceit in control of the deception. Profit for the sake of more profit is the deception and deceit in one of its most devious positions, creating societies of haves and have nots and maintaining that physical inequality, which maintains the deception. The haves give handouts, but do not share their material knowledge and wealth equally with the have nots, for profit for the sake of profit does not imply profit for the sake of evolution. True evolution is not material or technological evolution, but spiritual evolution: the only evolution that is permanent.

The inequality that you witness is the deception and deceit in action and it occurs in all parts of the world equally. It is just as operative in desperately poor areas as in profoundly rich ones. The action of the deception and deceit in both rich and poor is identical; only the scale of gain or loss is different. Profit for the sake of evolution would alter humanity and how each would treat another. Deceit's competition to have better, newer, faster things than another, and the deception's requirements of power, status and position would no longer exist.

All inequalities will only be eliminated when the deception and deceit are eliminated, as it is that which creates them. Handouts will not work, as eventually that hand will be bitten by the same deception that gave the crumbs. Social service networks are essential Band-Aids throughout the world; but they will remain Band-Aids until the deception and deceit is recognized as the evil one. It destroys in the name of protecting and perpetuates all the injustices and inequalities that exist. As you live in the centerless-center of your existence, any change in the world or the universe begins with you. The inequalities and injustices are resident within the deception and deceit, which is resident within you. Change begins at home and home is where you live, for with that change the world and universe also change. It really does begin with you.

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6.REVELATIONS

You have quoted from the Book of Revelations numerous times and I was wondering if you intend to expand on what has already been at some future date?

Response
The use of the Book of Revelations was to demonstrate that it is the deception and deceit that is the evil one, as it is the deception that passes its authority to the deceit, and the deceit then acts in its name and with its power. The deception and deceit exists within every human, and as such every human has the evil one as a resident ruler. It has usurped individual existence authority, putting the evil one right in the midst of those who have vowed to destroy it.

The Book of Revelations has in all probability been altered quite extensively throughout the ages by the good intent of others, obviously affecting the purity of what remains. But the primary components are still intact and it is those that have been used. Consequently only those aspects that are clearly identifiable and consistently used throughout The Book of Revelations are utilized. There are many other issues suggested in Revelations, but at the central core of them all is the deception and deceit, and it is that which this book Presence, is focused upon. The other issues in Revelations are left for the reader to resolve, as what has been given there is enough information to figure out the remainder by yourself. As already suggested, when you do read the Book of Revelations read it in the spirit of understanding, as it is truly very revealing if read in understanding and not fear. The fear arises when you see the consequences, but that is only the resolution energy being reactive to created actions, active omissions or thoughts on a variety of resolution levels.

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7.URANTIA BOOK READER

I am a reader of the Urantia Book and have noticed a great deal of similarity between what you are describing and the Urantia Book, but there is also a marked difference. Can you please explain the difference or similarity if any between them?

Response
The basic difference is that the Urantia book has been formulated and presented from the other side or pure spirit dimension, as a revelation where the knowledge that is presented is a living reality. Presence, the book, is written from this side of existence and can only extend into that other side by spirit logic. It is founded upon experiential knowledge drawn by the knower from observer-substance through Substance and That Sense of Presence.

If there is any noticeable difference, it will be the extending of known, accepted or presented constructs beyond their existent borders. It is in the extension of those borders that the book Presence can appear to vary slightly from the Urantia book. But those extensions are only the natural evolution of taking constructs out of there time-restrictive confines, which the Urantia Book presenters was obligated to follow.

More specifically the terminology can vary slightly, as the terminology in the book Presence, has been formulated to match a knower experience and not to support a revelation construct. Even though a knower experience and a revelation constructs may express the same intention, the terminology can vary as the discovery methods are from different sources. An example of this is the terminology of Mystery Monitor or Thought Adjuster in the Urantia book. This is the same as That Sense of Presence in Presence, the book.

From an individual volitional knower point of view, the terminology of That Sense of Presence will match the experience, in practical terms, making it more difficult to create restrictive borders using that form of expression. Mystery Monitor or Thought Adjuster is graspable terminology, and can be used as an expressible construct for explanation purposes: restrictive borders can be positively constructed and easily presented within that terminology form. Basically there is no real difference between presented revelation terminology in the Urantia book and experiential developed terminology in the book Presence. Both come to the same end, just from divergent angles. Another example of the variable terminology evolution is found in the Original Egg section in the book Presence, which varies from the Urantia book, not as to end result or content, but how the terminology developed.

The revelation in the Urantia book was presented in a form so as not to interfere with free will choice of developmental constructs. This interference could artificially or prematurely speed up personal evolution before its natural unfolding occurred. The book Presence supports the extension or opening of some of the self-imposed restrictive guidelines, which exist within some of the revelation constructs presented in the Urantia book. This is primarily observable in the use of the terminology personality in both the Urantia book and Presence. In the Urantia book personality 'is from God, who is father to all personality and is eternal, changeless and unique, and is one of the unsolved mysteries of the universe'. In Presence the book, personality is consciousness as observer-knower with the spirit pattern of free will amalgamated with the knower. Both consciousness and the spirit pattern of free will are from Absolute Consciousness as the First Manifest. This does not solve the mystery, only mechanically demystifies it. The book Presence then extends or alters the terminology of personality, when the deception and deceit are present to person-ality, for there is now a person present that does not belong within pure consciousness or personality.

As you read both books you will discover that there is no real fundamental construction difference or direction between them, merely the slight variation of terminology use. The Urantia book is presented or revealed revelation, whereas Presence, the book, is the experiential exploration of existence that creates avenues to explore and experience the truth of the revealed revelation.

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8.SEPARATED

No matter what I seem to do I never get a real sense of another presence beyond my own. Although at particular moments I do seem to get a fleeting sense of something beyond and greater than myself, it comes and goes with such speed that as it is occurring it is already a memory. My own presence feels isolated and separated, and I do understand the spirit logic you have outlined, which does help in appreciating the experiences as they occur, but the sense of separation persists. Other that what you have already suggested, is there anything that I can do to remove that sense of separation?

Response
If this book was about a particular belief-faith it would only be necessary to say 'Believe in such and such', and that will remove your sense of separation. This can be both absolute truth and self-created self-deception. A belief-faith can create a real feeling sense of connection or an artificial emotional one. Which one occurs totally depends upon individual motivation and intent.

The next time a sense of a greater sense of presence speeds through your awareness try not using any form of thought as it is occurring. Sink into it before it evaporates. Just allow your pure knower natural unrestricted freedom to melt into the feeling, letting go of everything, including letting go of the letting go. If you can do that without allowing the thought of what it happening to arise,relinquishing control, you will feel yourself disappear into that other sense of presence, and there your experiencer will experience by resonance the Experiencer, which is Presence. As easy as that may appear, it really is not, as the knower-I deception always wants part of the action. The deceit will arise upon the deception, which can instantly attract a maladapted resolution energy response, and what could have been, is easily destroyed by that deceit.

Thought is your best friend and can be your worst enemy. One thought will prevent you from experiencing that personal sense of union, as the one thought is the knower-I deception as the volitional thinker, making an appearance to destroy the very thing you are seeking. Letting go of the deception controller without one thought, allows you to sink into that evaporating sense of presence — other than your own — before it evaporates. It only evaporates because you are already beginning to think of the experience, as it is occurring. Trust is in the letting go, giving up the controlling knower-I deception that does the thinking as a volitional thinker. The moment you try to appreciate an experience as it is occurring, is the moment you have allowed the deception to enter to destroy the experience. Or as the experience is occurring you are simultaneously aware that it is occurring, deflecting from what that experience is actually conveying.

The only real reason that you feel separated or isolated is because you believe yourself to be the knower-I deception. This is an artificial creation separate from your pure knower reality that induces the feeling of separation, as it is separation. That feeling of separation is very real to the knower-I deception, as it knows no other reality other than its own. As long as you feel yourself to be the knower-I deception, the sense of separation and isolation will persist.

You may get emotional evangelistic hits of ecstatic spiritual joy that create an emotional connection, which is great. But they are normally all deceit initiated that wither and die without memory to remind you. The knower must be awake to its own existence before you may appreciate that statement, but once awake it is obvious. The seductive limitation of those spiritual hits of ecstasy is, just that and nothing more. Those spiritual hits of ecstasy can set up a new separation scenario, as something to achieve; the deception giving itself more life. When you do allow or trust yourself to fall into that fleeting other sense of presence, you will not experience something outside yourself, as you will discover that you are the experience, and not something that you experience. The difference is the difference between the pure knower and the knower-I deception. The former is life whilst the latter takes life.

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9.MAKING IT PRACTICAL

The world in which I live is a seemingly endless series of problems to solve, compounded by perpetual pressures of economic survival, leaving little or no time for personal growth. When there is a space to relax I simply want to crash and do nothing that may add more stress to my already stressful life. Somewhere within keeping my job, spending quality time with both my wife and our lovely children, and meeting all our financial commitments there has to be a space for just me, even if that does sound selfish.

I need that personal space desperately, but work and family commitments take all my time and I sometimes feel that I am just a workhorse and when my work is done, I will be put down. I am getting into desperate states of mental anguish that I thought would never happen to me. I love my work and family, but I feel to be going nowhere, running on the spot until l just drop out of exhaustion. Little things that once never annoyed me are now beginning to drive me into instant anger. It just is not me, and that anger is making me angry with myself for becoming angry with such trivial matters.

How do I make what you have said practical in my daily living? I cannot, and do not wish to alter my work or family situation in any manner, but I also require personal relief or I feel I will just explode. Exploding is more actual imploding, as what is building cannot be expressed outwards. I know that the outside is not the problem, just a catalyst, but knowing that is not helpful, as the mental anguish remains. I no longer have any pressure relief values, as those things that used to give me that sense of relief, no longer work. I am becoming desperate as everywhere I turn I seem to get patronizing responses that I already know, and being told the obvious makes it worse. I have refused any form of medication, even though I am beginning to believe that I really need it. But I also know that it does not solve the problem, and the medication may remove or cover an aspect of myself that I need to solve this dilemma.

The pressures of life are just getting to great to handle without some form of personal connection to make all the work and struggle have meaningful value. I can no longer participate in any religion or organization for any form of connective relief, as the rigidity of the dogma turns me away; even though the rigidity is covered with sugar that appears to smooth those edges. The sugar makes it look soft, but I can still see that the edges are always in waiting and it would be so much easier if I could not see those edges, but I can. The duplicity of knowing or seeing and being limited to only talking about the sugar and never the edges, prevents me from enjoying the sugar. I am not permitted to talk about those edges, as that is contrary to the belief. I need some form of connection that I can release into to relieve the pressures that are constantly building, but I cannot seem to get it anywhere; and living is becoming more and more difficult to participate in, even though what I have and do, I truly do love.

This is included as it does raise a valid question: where to obtain a form of connection that will give your daily experiences relevance and meaning that is practical and directionally satisfying? This form of connection can prevent any form of pressure build up that may destroy the very thing that you are working for and love.

Response
Basically, this is not being able to confirm your own conclusions, and you are very noticeably and painfully aware of. To cut short a possibly long response, it the duality of restriction and non-restriction — along with referencing — that initiates your difficulties, which is also the primary cause for most others in similar circumstances. As theoretical as that may appear, it is also the ground upon which the deception and deceit thrive. The deception will experience a sense of being at a dead end, and the deceit will usher in any emotion to keep the knower-I locked within it, maintaining the life of the deception. The entire process is self-maintaining and there appears no out. This intensifies the emotion that creates the sense of pressure, as it has no place to go to. It is most definitely not a happy place to be, but the choice of your words 'sugar and edges' indicates a deep level of investigation, which by itself should give you a right direction sense of satisfaction. They indicate an existence exploration depth that could only be achieved by a fair degree of focused determination that has gone way beyond merely an intellectual vision, as you are feeling it.

The resolution of the 'bridge of duality' is the development of your equanimity, which will create your internal and external balance and harmony. The equanimity will naturally or eventually lead you to discover The Good embedded within your consciousness, which is felt as compassion. That compassion is not only for others, it is also for you. Turning that compassion on yourself is self-healing, preventing any personally destructive or negative energy build up, for it bypasses the deceit, and the deception feels the healing balm. The deception is also what feels the mental anguish and the deceit attracts an appropriate emotion to maintain the anguish, but your own compassion can nullify the lot. If that is not sufficient then your own strength must enter to simply let it all go, for the lot is also self-created. It really does not exist: no matter how much pain you may be feeling. It is all deceit created for the deception to wallow in, which maintains the deception that the deceit emotion now controls. The deception is a slippery chameleon, but the deceit is totally manipulative, and when 'the beasts' are in control they are in ruthless control. This is spirit psychology, supporting your spirit logic that you make a decision to trust or not. It comes right down to a clear yes or no: for there is no in-between.

The in-between state of existence goes nowhere, which is deceit supported with a variety of emotions, maintaining the deception as an existent entity that is feeling all the emotions and pain, but the deception it an illusion. The knower-I still has free will locked within the intellect as a volitional thinker; and that combination creates the deception that the illusion is real: maintained, of course by any form of deceit emotion. This closed system is self-maintaining and continuous until the knower-I is cleared back to a pure knower or the volitional thinker returns to a volitional knower. Until that occurs, the deceit will control the deception by a variety of emotions that will keep you locked in the deception, keeping you in the in-between state. You are trapped and you will remain trapped unless you make a clear decision to clear the knower back to its original state of existence. Then your spiritual journey can really begin.

All the feeling of instant anger, pressure relief, mental anguish and desperation are deception responses when it feels itself under threat; and by the words you use it is obvious the deception is well and truly being besieged. This becomes very noticeable when you run out of constructs to reference, as there is nothing else left, ushering in the instant anger, pressure, mental anguish and desperation, as you have hit a brick wall with no where else to go. You are at a dead end. It is right at that moment in your life that you adopt new constructs to give you relief and a sense of safety and security: alter you old patterns with a new coat of paint, medicate the deception or go beyond all constructs as personal experiential knowing your own existence. This is a clear yes or no decision.

No one can make that decision for you, as that must be a free will choice, which is loosening the bonds of the volitional thinker by your free will choice to move beyond it. This begins the interesting journey of unbinding free will from the intellect to allow it to naturally remain within its home, which is in the knower. The decision to begin is the first step or the removal of the first bond, allowing the return home to begin. This is one of most important moments in your life, even though it may not be recognized as such. You have set your course and now, finally, the guidance and input of That Sense of Presence begins to act directly within your life. As the deception bonds on free will are slowly removed, your clarity increases proportionately as the veils of your light are being removed, and knower clarity is a natural result. One day when the conditions are right, as the knower light is slowly being freed of its veils, knowingly or even unknowingly, you allow your knower to sink into itself with nothing in its way. Paradoxically, there you discover a greater sense of presence beyond your own, by you not being there. Now your life really becomes interesting, but that is for you to discover, as no one can give you that life: you have to earn it by your own effort.

Referencing no longer relies upon constructs, as now you reference your own consciousness, for it does contain all there is. All those states of mental anguish, anger and desperation where all an illusion, which is what the deception is: but this you may never believe until you discover it for yourself. The brick wall or the dead end is the end of construct referencing, and either you move with a straight yes or you remain as you are with a no. It is that simple for it really is a straight yes or no, as there is no in-between.

Using your terminology forget the edges as that is only the borders of the construct and go for the sugar, for the sugar is identical in all constructs; it is only how it is tasted that is different. The joy of the sugar is the same in all-religious constructs; it is only the deception that makes it appear different to another who tastes the same sugar in a different construct. It is the sugar that unites the constructs and the edges that keep them apart. Enjoy the sugar as that will confirm your conclusions and provide an experiential connection to the source of the sugar. Again, it really is that simple.

The foregoing was spirit psychology and spirit logic and the following are some practical processes that may be beneficial for opening the borders of restrictive patterns, allowing non-restriction access to your thought processes that support the removal of the deception and deceit. Primarily, no matter what you do it is always the deception and deceit that is the precipitator of all the problems. Getting the deception and deceit is a primary objective, as once got it's got for eternity, but until that occurs the deception and deceit is always in a win-win situation. The deception will always feel the pain and the deceit will attract an emotion to keep the pain, maintaining the deception that turns the deceit into the controller of the controlling deception.

(a) ART and MUSIC
Art and music, both in its production and appreciation, can expose non-restriction, as both bypass the deception to impact directly upon the knower by resonance creating the 'Ahaness' of the experience. Art and music can also be created by the deception for the deception of others. This is a totally other world that is designed to inflame or excite the emotions, creating borders to hang on to rather than bypassing them.

Both music and art will either resonate with knower feeling or knower-I emotion, and the difference can be seen in the result of each form of expression. This is not suggesting that one is right and the other wrong, but merely pointing out that each will have very definite and different results from the other.

When the technical skill is learned, both music and art can become a pure knower liberation process that feels as if you are not doing the producing even though you are. What is seen or heard is the technical skill, but what is felt is how that technical skill is used. This can create a feeling connection that your pure knower appreciates, but can be devalued when attempting to explain the production, as the knower-I can enter to do the explaining. Art and music, both in its production and appreciation, can be used to gain a practical feel of non-restriction that can then be transferred to other areas of your existence. This transference occurs, as you become aware of restriction in others areas of your life, due to having this practical experience of non-restriction, even though in all probability you will not refer to it with that terminology.

Historically some Zen Buddhist adherents, amongst other approaches, have used sumie painting and kyudo (Japanese archery) to achieve an experiential state of no-mind or unrestricted mind that goes beyond the technical skill. This is the release of non-restriction from out of the restrictive or technical skills of the discipline. Expressionist art is another art form that totally eliminates the boundaries of restriction and can produce a surreal representation that points directly at non-restriction. Expressionist art forms can infuriate anyone with tightly held restrictive thought forms, whilst those who live within non-restriction can be moved to tears of appreciative joy. Formalized restrictive art can do the same thing from another angle, as precise techniques will produce an exact replica of what is observed. The feel behind the technique is what makes the production a technical masterpiece or a technical masterpiece that you can feel.

Art is a form of expression that can unveil the non-restrictive nature of the knower through precise technical restrictive techniques. Free flowing representational art that looks nothing like what it is attempting to portray, can create a knowing-feeling of what is being portrayed. No matter what form of art you resonate with, all the various forms will provide a practical experiential process to connect to non-restriction. This will establish a knowing-feeling that can be use or transferred to another experience in another area of your life. This transference can establish a confirming connective experience to the Knower of Absolute Consciousness by your knower of consciousness, as your nonrestrictive knowing-feeling experience in one area is now recognizable in another area.

Music is similar to art for although technical skill can be appreciated, the feeling behind the technical skill is what makes it vibrate with nonrestrictive life. Both art and must can create a positive connection to non-restriction though a variety of processes, allowing you to mitigate any negative energy build up such as mental anguish. Both create avenues to experience positive connective feeling within non-restriction. It is this experience that can be transferred to create a knower resonate confirmation of its own conclusions, as the feeling is now recognizable as confirmation that will not be discounted. By recognizing, appreciating and accepting your nonrestrictive experiences as emanating from within your own consciousness — that simply makes you feel good — opens the door for you to transfer that feel good experience of the knower into other areas of your life. This allows you to bypass the mental anguish created by the knower-I deception, and to recognize it as the illusion that it always was.

Other actions, also referred to as making you feel good, induced by alcohol, so-called recreational drugs or other forms of seductive stimulation, only make the knower-I feel good temporarily. The knower-I feels attached to the body, as both exist in the second reflection and anything that makes the body feel good will make the knower-I feel good. But it all passes, as everything in the second reflection is of a temporary nature. Although both forms of feel good experiences occur in the second reflection, those of the knower-I are transitory, emotionally based experiences because the knower-I deceit is transitory and emotionally based. In contrast the pure knower feeling emanates from permanency, as it arises from the permanency of The Good, and it remains, as knower feeling is permanent. It arises from permanency, which is a second reflection felt experience retained in and by the first awareness of first reflection of consciousness.

Another of these passing actions, that the knower-I deception accepts as making itself feel good, is art and music that will always create emotional responses. This is the deceit in visible action supporting the life of the deception, but in fact the deceit is actually controlling the deception. You do not have to look far to see the destructive results of this form of deceit action, which self-perpetuates in self-indulgence, arrogance and contemptuous attitudes. This can create a deceptive self-obsessed sub-culture that self-insulates itself within the deceit.

(b) PHYSICAL MODALITIES
There are many forms of directing physical movement to create knower-focused attention, containing the knower-I deception by that knower attention. Probably the best known of these is Tai Chi. All of the many existing forms of controlled, focused and directed movement are restrictive in their learning of techniques. As with art and music, practice and more practice eventually creates non-thinking correct technical movement, eventuating in a purity of experiential nonrestrictive feeling-vision by that movement. This non-restricted feeling-vision is peaceful and beneficial in a variety of ways and can create a sense of well being or simply feeling good. All of the various movement modalities contain the potential to experience pure non-restriction transferred to other areas of your life, establishing knower spirit value that is survivable.

The other major physical modality is playing, which is just the enjoyment of activity that frees you of your daily concerns. This is entering nonrestrictive freedom of action by totally ignoring or forgetting the restriction that you have placed upon yourself. The play can simply be with your family — at whatever you all enjoy — or any non-competitive activity such as walking, skiing, swimming or cycling etc. The moment you allow any form of competition to enter, you have allowed the deception in eventually destroying whatever you are attempting to build or release. If the pure knower could direct the controlling knower-I in competitive sports, so as not to be controlled by the competition, then you could enjoy the sport. But this is normally not the case, as the competition becomes the controller, which is a deceit action that supports the continuance of the deception.

All forms of competition are actions of the knower-I deception. The pure knower is not in competition within anyone, including itself. Pure knower actions strive for personal excellence and perfection, but the results are not reflected in the mirror of others, nor measured against its own achieved standard at any given moment in time. Personal excellence requires no standard to compare to. It simply stands on its own, with no reference to past or future events.

On the other hand, the knower-I deception competes for everything, and the object it competes for creates the energy for the deceit to arise upon, maintaining the deception. The deception will always indulge in some form of competition with others or itself. It consistently compares each result to a previous or future one, again creating the energy for the deceit to arise upon. It is a vicious circle that repeats endlessly. Competition, in all its forms, maintains the deception. But the action for personal excellence — if not compared or reflected against anything including itself — creates spirit value, for in some fashion the knower will be evolving its own substance.

Play, or any form of knower focused attention activity, contains the potential for the participant to appreciate or recognize non-restriction, and this appreciation can carry over into other areas of daily existence, allowing you to see the same issue or difficulty from another angle. That clarity can alter negative situations into positive ones, therefore, changing the evolution direction of those concerned, eventually affecting the totality of humanity. That may appear a bit idealistic, but the smallest of things that you do, can unknowingly effect the totality of humankind without you even been aware that it was your input that initiated the end result. Never underestimate the smallest of deeds, as they can turn into the greatest accomplishments.

(c) MEDITATION
Meditation, if followed as suggested in the book, will provide the experiential knowing of the difference between the knower and the knower-I deception. This seeing and knowing can instantly remove any mental anguish that exists, as the knower-I will be bypassed that created the mental anguish. Or the intellectual appreciation of the deception and deceit will at least reveal what is the cause of the mental anguish. To discover the pure knower through meditation is still the most actively direct pathway to this end, as meditation discoveries provide all the information to recognize the difference between the knower and the knower-I. This does not suggest that there are not many other processes to do the same thing, as there are many, but possibly the most direct method to experientially learn how to recognize and expose the evil one in action, is through the suggested meditation techniques.

These suggested meditation techniques are designed to allow you to discover, uncover or unveil your own light, instantly illuminating all that your light is not. The recognition of your own self-existent light, as an experiential fact and not just intellectual knowledge, creates a clarity of seeing and knowing that opens a new world within the old. It has always been there: just not recognized.

(d) COMPASSION
Meditation may be the most actively direct pathway to expose the evil one, but compassion is absolutely the most non-active process to do the same thing. It has an enormous range of other benefits. Non-active means that you do not have to actively engage in a process to discover compassion, as it is always present, a visible reaction of The Good that is embedded within your consciousness.

You do not have to do any form of work for compassion to be present. In fact it is the other way around, you have to work for it not to be present. The blocking of you innate compassion is by the activation of your created or accepted constructs veiling The Good, and so blocking the energy of compassion that is flowing outward. This positive outward flowing energy is negatively blocked by those constructs that prevent the compassion from being present or felt. It is blocking a healing energy for yourself and for those toward whom it was flowing. This distorted response creates a mal-adaptation of the resolution energy to this unnatural blockage, as the blockage exists like a cancer within The Good.

Compassion does not simply mean feeling sympathetic or pity. It extends to the entire range of human activity, as a direct response from The Good embedded within your consciousness. Compassion may only be looked upon as a response to a particular action, but compassion is active in all your daily responses. It is just that you have created or accepted constructs to block the energy in particular circumstances and not in others. That blockage is one of the major initiators of dis-ease, but not appreciated as a cause. It is invisible to all except your resolution energy, which recognizes your motivation and not necessarily your actions.

Compassion is the natural out flowing of a responsive energy from The Good embedded within your consciousness, as your knowing or seeing activates The Good by instinctively knowing or seeing something that is going contrary to what The Good is. This is an active energy during every moment of your existence, guiding you to right action and thought in all circumstances, if you allow it to materialize. This is your decision. It does matter how you arrive at that decision, as it can merely be a reaction to a learned should or should not, and that is fine, but not spiritually evolutionary. To become spiritually evolutionary you simply have to respond to the compassion that will naturally arise in every circumstance in your life. You merely have to follow whatever direction that compassion is pointing toward, which you will instinctively know without anyone telling you.

This one simple action will remove your accumulated mental anguish, as that one action will simply feel good, for it is a direct acceptance of The Good, embedded within your consciousness. You will discover that all mental anguish has been created by constructs that your knower-I has accepted or created, going contrary to what The Good is. You may not have even deliberately or knowingly made that decision to do so. That indirect decision is normally based upon maintaining a social status or position, that is financially survivable or pure profit orientated, and overrides any compassionate feeling that may arise. A survival choice versus a compassionate choice is always a difficult choice. But your personal survival in both worlds may rest squarely upon it.

The bottom line is that it is only necessary to allow your natural compassion space to arise and follow the direction it is pointing to: this is compassion taking the appearance of humanitarian or merciful action. That direction is The Good, embedded within your consciousness that becomes your in-built guide. The Good is the First Manifest as Absolute Consciousness, which is Presence. Your are never far from the source of your own existence.

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10. RESPONSIBLE AGENT

You have mentioned a few times that we are the responsible agent for our own existence. I understand the obvious, that of taking responsibility for my own actions. Is there more or is that it?

Response
Being a responsible agent for your own existence means just that, being responsible for all your actions, thoughts and motivation. Because your actions are visible everyone can see them, and those actions can be judged in the exterior world. But your thoughts or motivation only yourself and the resolution energy can see. The resolution energy self-initiates from within your own consciousness, consequently you become responsible for your every thought. Every thought is resolved in relation to your own substance construction, as the essence of the construction is the reference for the thought. In short, it means that there is no entity outside yourself that punishes or rewards you for what you do or think: you do it all to yourself: you are your own judge and jury.

For those who have not read the book, that statement can easily be misunderstood. The substance of your existence is constructed from the material of infinity: primordial awareness. When primordial awareness transforms into consciousness awareness, The Good — as the nature or essence of primordial awareness — remains impersonally embedded within consciousness awareness. It is The Good that the resolution energy arises from and to which all your actions, thoughts and motivation are referenced to.

Being a responsible agent for your own existence is not looking outside yourself or to someone else for approval and acceptance of what you are or do. Eventually or ultimately you will be faced with your own existence as containing is own purpose, direction and destiny. When that responsibility is fully experienced, you will have experiential knowledge — and not just second hand information — of the essence of your existence. This experiential knowledge contains who you are, what you are, where you are heading and why. That is what is meant by being the responsible agent for your own existence.

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